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My new voice goes out over the airwaves for the first time tonight. I recorded a piece for Bill Richardson's new show, Bunny Watson, on CBC. Though the piece isn't about transition, I sort of threaded it in, since I was aware that some people listening would be thinking, "Meryn Cadell? That doesn't sound like Meryn... What the hell?"
So I should really start using this blog, and start talking. I have had an online life for quite a while now, just not a public life.
Here's the news: Over the past couple of years, I have transitioned from a female kind of person to a male kind of person. This has brought me tremendous peace of mind, and a sense of finally being at home in my body.
My name is the same, and will always be the same. I am proud of who I've been and what I've accomplished in my life this far, and want my life to be one contiguous exploration. It's all been good. I have not forsaken one thing to "gain" another. In fact, I haven't forsaken anything. In some ways, this may seem like a monumental shift - and in some ways, of course, it is. The largest shift is the just the grokking - for me and for those who know me - that gender is truly fluid. Once I was past that, this transition has been simple in the extreme. I just feel more like me. Small shifts in my self create one whole and happy person. Makes me think of optometry tests where the doctor shows you several blurry and separate objects on the screen and asks you to indicate when they resolve. Slowly, lenses turn, clicks are heard, and then aahhhh: one solid image. This is me.
So I should really start using this blog, and start talking. I have had an online life for quite a while now, just not a public life.
Here's the news: Over the past couple of years, I have transitioned from a female kind of person to a male kind of person. This has brought me tremendous peace of mind, and a sense of finally being at home in my body.
My name is the same, and will always be the same. I am proud of who I've been and what I've accomplished in my life this far, and want my life to be one contiguous exploration. It's all been good. I have not forsaken one thing to "gain" another. In fact, I haven't forsaken anything. In some ways, this may seem like a monumental shift - and in some ways, of course, it is. The largest shift is the just the grokking - for me and for those who know me - that gender is truly fluid. Once I was past that, this transition has been simple in the extreme. I just feel more like me. Small shifts in my self create one whole and happy person. Makes me think of optometry tests where the doctor shows you several blurry and separate objects on the screen and asks you to indicate when they resolve. Slowly, lenses turn, clicks are heard, and then aahhhh: one solid image. This is me.